week one: complete

So first off my roommates Adrianna and Sarah = awesome
Now that that's done with...I went to a club last night with two black girls walked in and within two seconds decided it was too black for us...yes us I'm not really sure where I got the idea that I'm not insanely white but they teach me their ways and it's awesome =)
Example:
Me: "what is this?!" (about tub of hair...umm...grease?)
Adrianna: "are you serious?" *rolling eyes*
Sarah: "it's for our hair girl."
Adrianna: "yeah our shit gets to looking like hot mess if we don't use this shit"
Me: "oh cool =)"

And so on and so forth I learn many a thing everyday from those two =)

Now...work is neat...Tim Michael Alex Justin Brenda Harry are neat...school is neat...

Chemistry will be awesome...

Home is neat

Lotte is AMAZING!!!!LKJ!KHKRJLUE()R&(&(*#$^*@$&()OJSFY(Q&$)($F

yeah that's a link apparently maybe I'll make that something awesome...who knows

anyways it's been a while so I thought maybe I should do something awesome like this...

oh and pedals on our pirate ships look that shit up because it's off the chain (tehe I said off the chain)

but yeah

The End.






For now...

this is my life and it's ending one minute at a time...

and now my life has been reduced to a few boxes and some random shit in the back of an old tahoe...

Final packing day

Maybe I should not have waited so long to pack...
all the hours, days, and weeks of having packing as my status on facebook aim and gmail...
sadly they were lies....unfortunately I backed myself into this little corner of....stuff...created by procrastination and had to dig my way out of it today and yesterday...I am pretty much free I can't help but to get that nagging feeling that I'm forgetting something....or maybe I just don't want to leave yet...

leaving means growing up..
even if it's just a little bit

I mean what if I'm not ready? then what do I do?

suck it up I suppose....

maybe I'm not even worried maybe I'm just overly excited...tomorrow is the first day of the next chapter of the book that is my life...(this is the first day of my life I think I was born right in the doorway...I went out in the rain suddenly everything changed they're spreading blankets on the beach)..
anyways I'm not ridiculously apprehensive just enough to make me want to crawl into bed for a day or two and sleep away moving in..if I could do the whole thing in a sleep-walk like trance I would but that's just the scared little girl in me I suppose...
I'm not even shy
I don't have a hard time talking to new people
especially when everyone around me is new
I actually find comfort in not having to deal with judgements of people who know me
this whole post seems to be a circle and since a line allows progress and a circle does not I guess I'll try to be a little more linear..(very obscure reference there) I'm worried but I know it will all be fine I just hope all my friends back in powhatan don't disappear on me when I'm not so far
I can't drive to see them any more so that weight has to be transferred from my shoulders to theirs maybe I shouldn't be worried though if they love me like I know they do they'll stick around...
although who really knows?


Always back to that circle....